one year ago today

So my brother died one year ago today. Does this mean that St. Patrick's day has been forever ruined for me? I really don't know. Part of me wants to forget it ever happened and try to be Irish on St. Patrick's day, but part of me can't help but recall how my brother apparently did not have the "luck of the Irish" that day. If my brother was here, I think he'd tell me just to move on, get on and get off it already. Of course, that would be easy for him to think, as he's not the one in the position of living the rest of life without a brother.